A New Frontier
I really don't know what I mean by the title of this blog. Just wanted to say it.
So God's been unbelievably good to me. I'm nervous and scared and excited all at the same time about this small nudge I feel in my heart. For a long time, about half a year, I've felt somehow detached from reality. As if my life, my self, my actions held no relevance and no consequence. I guess you could say I was in denial of my own life. I felt very far away from God, but now He's pulling me back in, despite my lack of uh, enthusiasm. As I'm sure anyone who reads this blog has already guessed, I am expressing my feelings, my emotions in this entry, in a slightly cryptic way. And of course, they are magnified, amplified, and exaggerated in the process of passing from "being" to "feeling" to "expressing". I feel grounded once again, knowing God's strong arms are holding me close. He is amazing in His goodness.
On another topic.. AAAAAHHHH!! I need to hurry with my applications or I'm not going to make it by the deadline I set for myself! (I gave myself a couple weeks short of the actual deadline so I would have a bit more... breathing space, I guess I could say)
My heart is actually fluttering with nervousness and something else I can only describe as discomfort. See, I'll be starting my internship/volunteer training this week, except that it's on Sundays. There are three mandatory training days that I have to attend, and they're all on Sundays. In a row. From 7:30am to 4pm. So... I'll be missing church three weeks in a row. Ok, I almost had a mini panic-attack just now. Man.. -_-;;
The church I go to offers a service just like Sunday's on Saturdays. I spoke with my family, and of course, there is no such thing as "replacing a Sunday" by going to church on Saturday. So, taking advantage of the fact that my dad is a pastor... I asked them if we could have a night service at home during those three Sundays. Sigh. I'll be relieved when the training is over.
I should go work on my speech now. The hardest thing about these is coming up with a topic. Argh..
I really don't know what I mean by the title of this blog. Just wanted to say it.
So God's been unbelievably good to me. I'm nervous and scared and excited all at the same time about this small nudge I feel in my heart. For a long time, about half a year, I've felt somehow detached from reality. As if my life, my self, my actions held no relevance and no consequence. I guess you could say I was in denial of my own life. I felt very far away from God, but now He's pulling me back in, despite my lack of uh, enthusiasm. As I'm sure anyone who reads this blog has already guessed, I am expressing my feelings, my emotions in this entry, in a slightly cryptic way. And of course, they are magnified, amplified, and exaggerated in the process of passing from "being" to "feeling" to "expressing". I feel grounded once again, knowing God's strong arms are holding me close. He is amazing in His goodness.
On another topic.. AAAAAHHHH!! I need to hurry with my applications or I'm not going to make it by the deadline I set for myself! (I gave myself a couple weeks short of the actual deadline so I would have a bit more... breathing space, I guess I could say)
My heart is actually fluttering with nervousness and something else I can only describe as discomfort. See, I'll be starting my internship/volunteer training this week, except that it's on Sundays. There are three mandatory training days that I have to attend, and they're all on Sundays. In a row. From 7:30am to 4pm. So... I'll be missing church three weeks in a row. Ok, I almost had a mini panic-attack just now. Man.. -_-;;
The church I go to offers a service just like Sunday's on Saturdays. I spoke with my family, and of course, there is no such thing as "replacing a Sunday" by going to church on Saturday. So, taking advantage of the fact that my dad is a pastor... I asked them if we could have a night service at home during those three Sundays. Sigh. I'll be relieved when the training is over.
I should go work on my speech now. The hardest thing about these is coming up with a topic. Argh..
posted by Debora at
9:24 PM
1 Comments:
you can do it. x)
it's crazy how God works sometimes, huh?
and He keeps working, whether we like it or not.
talk about having someone always on your side..
ain't it grand?
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byulgzr, at 1:26 AM
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