It's been a year since I started nursing school. 5 years since I graduated from Berkeley. 9 years since high school. 14 years living in the US. 22 years since leaving Korea. 27... since God made me, fearfully and wonderfully.

Pastor Michael spoke about looking looking at God's faithfulness yesterday and thus have assurance of His faithfulness tomorrow. I don't have to look too hard to know that God has been unbelievably, mercifully faithful and steadfast. It amazes me how low my soul can sink while receiving such love. My own capacity for disobedience and sin in spite of His passionate pursuit of me...

I hide away from God, too ashamed and proud to face the holy Father. But he is relentless and insists he loves me and wants to heal me. I grow angry, I grow bitter. I sinned against You! Yet God looks at me with tender eyes, full of love and grace. Because of my own sense of failure I withdraw from the only one who can bring glory out of even my mistakes.

Humbled, I come before you. Over and over the same sin is committed. Time and time again you call me back to yourself. Holy God, merciful Father, once again I bring to you my broken and contrite heart. Have mercy on me and may your name be glorified.