too much knitting
i'm getting cramps on my hands and arms
i need a new hobby

last night i had trouble falling asleep because my brain couldn't stop thinking about patterns... oh, the patterns! twist this way, that way, weave in and out..
oh, by the way, Haejin unnie, i was thinking of making your handwarmer with the pattern that you said you liked, the two lines zig zagging and the single line zig zagging underneath it. baby blue, right? xP
the one on the corner:



but i need a day's rest from the needles or my arms will cramp up permanently haha
i wanna use the twisty stuff too, but i don't think they'll look good on small things, huh

Switching topics.
So school starts this week, I'm taking just two classes, irrelevant to pre-nursing, but gotta take something to maintain a student status so I get at least a week of heading for summer registration. Man, why is microbiology so packed EVERYWHERE?? Anyway, I'm taking speech (shaking in my boots) and an education class, which, I think, if I take the CBEST, will certify me for teaching kindergarten or elementary school (I'm not exactly sure). I don't want to think of teaching as a backup option, though. I really admire teachers, and it seems rather rude, or disrespectful to think of it in that way. It's a job that requires devotion and love of children. Which... I don't know if I have because I haven't been around kids. Really, if they started crying I would sit and cry with them. Yeah... not a good idea.

Ahem. Oh, good news. My ex-job(?) has paid me. They seem to be going through some tough financial times, and I really hate pressuring people, but I'm flat broke. So I was, I think, the most aggressive I've ever been with anyone that I remember, got the result I wanted, and feel really bad about it. Hmm. Did that sentence just make any sense? To explain myself: I called the CEO of the company pretty much every day. I had told my supervisor that I was thinking of filing a wage claim, and I think the CEO heard about it. So after playing some phone-tag we finally got to talk. I didn't really say much, he told me that he would pay me the next day, and the next day he told me he would pay me the next day, and so on. Bills were coming in and money was needed, so on Friday morning I called him and left him a message asking him to PLEASE send me the check TODAY. And he did. Afterwards he told me that he could only get half of my pay, and that he would get the rest as soon as he could. So the heat is off for the next couple weeks, but that only means that bills will get paid. I will still be flat broke. Yes, it's past time I got a job. So everyone tells me NOT to work for "that kind" of company again, and... I guess I won't. I really don't want to go back to being prejudiced against "that kind" of places, and I don't think I will. The reason I can say that is because I really feel guilty for having had to go as far as thinking of filing a wage claim. I mean, I really understand what that company may be going through. Financial depressions are hard enough without people calling you every day for money. I'm sure they wouldn't skip on the money they owe me, and I kept thinking about the parable from the Bible. Of the man who was forgiven his debts but he didn't forgive his debtors. I kept imagining the King frowning at me, maybe in the future punishing me, for being so unforgiving of those who owe me, when He's been so merciful with me; what I owe Him being so much more than a couple thousand dollars; unmeasurable. I hear people saying that it's not the same thing, but I still feel like it's the same thing and the guilty conscience remains.

BUT. Other than that I'm peachy happy. I've been bugging my sis to go with me to eat jja jang myun, and we finally did today. Well, we were putting it off because both of us are broke, and since I got paid... Ya know. Oh, why jja jang myun? One answer: Valentine's Day. My sis read somewhere that Valentine's Day was "single awareness day". I was cracking up at that. SO TRUE~! Because there's this weird tradition in Korea where those who don't have a date for Valentine's eat jja jang myun, I wanted to eat jja jang myun. Ok, so I love jja jang myun and Valentine's was just an excuse. But it was fun. Flaunting my singleness. x) About a month too late, but hey, we got to do it.

Sidenote.
Dude, so many people are either hooked up or engaged or married! It's... getting a bit weird.